Sunday, July 19, 2009
I shall only talk about how great God was to me in service.
When Pastor Andy started on the point about struggles in life..
I was struck by the revelation that I was not having a smooth life.
But one full of struggles deep inside.
And the truth.. That all along.. since that day.
I have been living in uncertainty.. in doubt.. in myself.
That I have been truly been shaken off the rock.
Today, even as I had approached the altar.
I did not expect God to touch me like this.
I did not expect Him to touch on what has been keeping me saddened.
But He did.. He wholly came into me.
I took that step.. I said to God..
Father, I come to you with an empty heart, with a dry heart, yearning, hungering for your presence in me. For I know that I have been drained by these struggles, but now I choose to come back to your word, and hold on to your truth. Let me let go.
That was not all.
Till Brother Darren came to speak into me.
He prayed, just like how God answered my call.
That God wants to cleanse me, He wants to relief me of all my burdens.
He spoke of my life being a dry desert, but God wants to pour out the living waters of heaven.
I cried.
I simply cried before the Lord.
The tears just flowed down.. and I heard the Lord's judgment.
Son, you have chosen to be pure. Cry my child, not because you are dry, but because I have filled you once again. However, this is my plan for you. Do not give up, continue to hold on to the very words you have received from me. Only that the time has not come.
I continued to stay still before God.
But I knew, deep inside that God has removed me of all my emptiness.
And now there is no stopping me from following God wholeheartedly.
I can truly press on, for now I know that God has planned it for me.
Till the very day God's will be done, I will trust in Him.
For I was once broken by separation.
And God, for the thousandth time, will bring me life.
I believe you understand.
May God speak to you.
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