Saturday, April 4, 2009
As for what has happened during npap training, I have chosen to put that aside.
Let it begin then.
For today's service, it has been a true encounter with God.
No matter how tired I may be.
Its regardless of everything.
Right from the start, I knew this service was going to be one that would change me.
Sis Gwen talked about the power of the Cross.
Why is this power so important that it was in a sermon?
We have that power.
God granted us this power through His grace.
The whole purpose of this sermon was about the third point.
To be dedicated to God.
To be dedicated, is to entirely love, to give up everything.
And most importantly, never give up despite circumstances.
Somehow, God already touched me before anything began.
At my seat, I had this feeling.
A feeling of yearning, yearning to hear from God.
Before we were even called out.
God touched me.
And I cried.
The feeling was not like before.
The tears flowed freely.
With no meaning, no message in my head.
No word, no voice, no vision.
But I just cried.
Then, I heard from God.
These tears that come from you,
Represent the spilled blood of Jesus.
Then I really broke down and cried.
Still I can describe the feeling.
Godly.
Then it came to the time of prayer.
It was no longer me praying.
I let myself go.
And have the Holy Spirit speak through me.
And I did not use the word "me" or "I".
I know how God has changed me.
And I know that I am blessed.
Though I may be given gifts from God.
The same gifts enable me not to be satisfied,
If others are struggling.
Since that moment.
Lasting even till now.
I have this sensation in my heart.
A sensation of wanting to hear from God.
And He told me this.
For you have dedicated your life to fufilling your purpose,
This will follow you for as long as you remain in me.
For only then can I remain in you.
I have been thinking of what God really wanted to tell me during the time I broke down.
And this message, I believe has the most meaning in it.
Why are you thinking my child?
Is it not that everything I can have for you is good?
I have laid down this course for you.
Do you have to think to know this is the path for you?
So, will you go?
Yes Lord, I will go.
I will follow wherever you lead.
I have counted the cost, and take up the cross.
And.
There is no turning back.
no turning back.
I have gone.
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