Thursday, January 22, 2009
Since i didnt reallt touch on what happened yesterday.. for short nth much happened. assembly was abit stupid, but i was reminded of joy, which i will talk abt later. for now ill talk abt a few stupid happenings.
1. The first lesson of mrs nancy tay. (quite long ago) but worth talking abt. She was talking abt why the west wanted to conquer the east, and when she came to the point of God, she used me as an example. "I've come to bring u God!" I really felt like telling her in the face, "I got a saviour and hes living in me." really. david was actually laughing at me when tt happened lol.
2. Someone from 3i1 actually commented that the people at the special ed sch may be too stupid to understand their efforts in cip. lol.
today was actually crappy. nth happened, and my zuowen cfm li ti again.
Following up on yesterday's post, to tell you, it wasn't targeted at anyone, not at sp due ther post that day, but it was meant for me. I'm currently alone in HCI, which is why i felt the need to tell others that if they are alone, I am sharing the same situation. The thing is, will you change that situation?
Today, I wrote on my spiritual life in zuowen again, which is why I knew I went out of point. Maybe I didnt realise, but my heart and soul is filled with emptiness. It has been quite some time, and I realised that joy was lacking in my life. Many of my classmates would disagree, but yes, I cannot find joy. Due to this curse of blessing that God has bestowed upon me, I cannot be filled with joy from within. Unless his hand reaches into me, which I do not want, or I feel the joy of others. Yes, I feel joy only when others truly feel spiritual joy. Life has been empty for me, and everyday I yearn for saturday to be nearer. I live for my generation, but I cannot seem to feel the joy in them. All I see is a sea of souls, souls who are lost, souls who are led by the devil. But again, I see my hand reaching out, and God's love pouring out, into my generation. Yet my hand still has not stretched out. Maybe it is time. Time for joy. For his purpose, in my generation.
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