Saturday, May 31, 2008
today.. is the day i be purified once again.. all because of a dream i had today.. i managed to grasp the feeling of love once again.. and once again i remember of the one i love.. after the dream.. my heart tore me apart.. and the purelist was gone.. i couldnt control my inner feelings.. i tried mapling.. cubing.. nth could relief me.. i feel pain and sorrow.. if only everyone could share this pain together.. but no one wants to.. memories are the onli things that cling on to my sorrow.. and yet.. it brings happiness and smiles.. that.. can never be brought back.. my heart is still.. dying.. purity is not the best.. as no one can be totally pure.. and even having a small bit of impurity.. means the beginning of the pain and sorrow when time comes.. as i try to type out my feelings.. i just cant.. i just cant.. this is no relief.. expressing my feelings is useless if she does not feel them.. even if she does.. will she feel the same? will i ever know? when will i have the courage to ask her again? what is wrong with me? i dont know any ans to all the questions.. she is the only one that can ans them.. and the final question.. is she asking herself the same questions as me?
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