Anthem Of Love

GUOCHEN

2010-01-19T21:37:00.001+08:00

THIS POST IS FOR GUOCHEN COS HE SAYS MY BLOG VERY DEAD LEH.

PDAY PDAY

2009-08-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

PDAY FTWWWWWW.
played guitar for the children today XD XD XD
AND I JUS LOVE THE PHOTO MONTAGE I DID.

POP

2009-08-20T00:24:00.000+08:00

is crappyyyyyyyy.
ROBBED ME OF MY MUGGING TIME RAWRRRRRRRR.
but amazingly i rmb all eqns XD

HERE WE GO..
Q=mc(Tf-Ti)
Q=C(Tf-Ti)
Q=mLf
PE=mgh
KE=0.5mv^2
Work=force/dist
Power=work/time
v=u+at
v^2=u^2+0.5at^2
v^2=u^2+2as
s=0.5(v+u)t

TADA.
some explanation stuff..
water absorbs heat, inc in KE, intermol dist inc, some have enuf KE to overcome intermol forces, evaporate.
hot water, inc in KE, intermol dist inc, vol inc, density dec, rise up, then cooled, sinks, convection.
shiny - bad emitter and bad radiator
as temp inc, air mol KE inc, freq and force of collision inc, hence avg force per unit area inc, inc pressure.

OMG ALL CAME FROM ME. XD XD XD

bleh.

2009-08-17T19:48:00.002+08:00

i got b3 for chem :D
quite amazing since i got c5 for my test XD

HAHAHAHHHHAHAH
omg i think i have been playing too much guitar.
if i cont this way.. i will have to buy another one soon >.<
now alr got like a few uneven surfaces T.T
haiz.
I WANNA GET MY CAPO.
and strap too XD of cos nd to drill a hole too -.-
can confidently play mighty to save and with chords can play evermore XD
HAHAHAAHHA
feeling uber now.

2010 NCOS ARE CONDUCTING TRAINING THIS FRIDAY.
but i think sec 1 ncos will join the sec3 squad lolz.
XD XD XD

OMGGGGG
TMR IHC TEST. lucky all SBQ..
BUT STILL OMGGGG.
wed got chi common test..
fri got phy test..
HAIZ.

ill be mugging :D

ln y = a ln x + ln b

2009-08-13T23:57:00.002+08:00

im still in maths imba mode.
XD XD XD..
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
STRIVING FOR MY MATHS EXEMPTION..
AHHAHHHAAHHA

IF I REALLY GET A1 I WILL THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING.
FOR IT IS BY HIS GRACE I CAN HAVE THIS CONFIDENCE.
AND ALSO FOR TMR'S LIT TEST :D

and abt my guitarrr..
crapp i dun always wan to play XD
though when i play i also dunno wad to play HAHHA
but i will play till my entire hand gets numb XD
OMG PALM MUTING SOUNDS DAMN COOL.
feel the need to learn but dunno how lol.

I NEED TO RESTRING MY GUITAR.
IT SOUNDS DIFFERENT T.T
bleh.

so far sch has been toooooo fun HAHHHA
whole class doing crapp stuff like playing soccer with a sepak takraw ball..
and latest trend - sounding the horn with iphones or lappies XD
MOUSEHUNT MOUSEHUNT.

haiz.
personally i think im too noob..
for the retarded young gentleman award -.-
chinese fail de lei.
HAHHAHAH

to me.. tests are like nth lorh.
dunno why ppl will like OMG TEST.. SI DIAO LIAO.
then lousy ppl will jus go home -.-

current chinese ace - 0
BUT I DONT CARE.
really dun care..
all i wan is my maths exemption.

well.. on the other side of my life.
after since i had the desire to let go.
and stopped asking the wrong question.
things have been exceptionally confusing.
i dont know what i am facing right now.
all i can do.. is to let God handle this.
but right now.. is to have Faith.
no matter.. i will uphold my position in God.
and nurture those yet to grow enough.

This is my prayer in the desert, fire, battle.
In dryness, trial, pain, under fire.
I have a God.

HAIYO

2009-08-11T20:34:00.001+08:00

I LAZY UPDATE RAWR.
TODAY RECIEVED YOUNG GENTLEMAN AWARD FORM -.-
RAWR RAWR.

solution of everything.

2009-07-26T02:07:00.004+08:00

It is not a human right
To stare not fight while broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find the mercy for the need

It is not too far a cry
Too much to try to help the least of these
Politics will not decide if we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet
Yeah Yeah

We will be your hands
We will be your feet
We run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light,
We will be your light

We will run
We will run
We will run with the solution
THE SOLUTION

TODAY WAS GODLY.
TOTALLY GODLY.
started off with meeting with bro sam for video shooting.
I AM NOW A COMMISSIONED SP :D
then retarded photoshoot.
i smile until cant smile alr still wan me smile -.-
but was uber funny wearing keith's shirt HAHA
FUEL was quite meaningful..
though i find abs no difficulty in loving my enemy. XD
SERVICE was like so little people o.O
HAHAHAAH sermon was quite interesting.
and i cried.. amazingly when i saw ignyters kneeling.

THE BEST OF ALL - HILLSONGS CONCERT.
pastor judah is really good.
the speech was aimed at bringing salvations, yet it also impacted us.
still, the best was the worship.
really great, never experienced such a time of worship.
jumping like never before.
not growing weary or tired of singing.
though we lost our voices after that we were fully satisfied with everything.
it was really great, all i can say.
:D

OH.
IM VIEWING GUITARS TMR.
HOPE I CAN FIND THE RIGHT ONE FOR ME :D
but not buying D:
will go back there another time to buy XD
IM SERVING AS VIDEO IN SIS GWEN'S WEDDING :D :D :D

o.O

2009-07-23T00:39:00.001+08:00

joel is serving as video team..
for sis gwen's wedding -.-
HHAHAHAAHHA.

bleh.

WHOO

2009-07-21T23:52:00.003+08:00

I jus wanna worship God.
though it was just a short prayer.
i took it really seriously.
and i imagined myself writing out my prayer on my paper.
AND NOW I BELIEVE I CAN GET 44/40 FOR MATHS.
XD

haizzzz.
WHEN CAN I GET HIGH.
wait.. im high now.

break BREAK.

2009-07-20T01:57:00.001+08:00

lets break.
:D

why. thank you.

2009-07-19T00:23:00.002+08:00

I shall only talk about how great God was to me in service.
When Pastor Andy started on the point about struggles in life..
I was struck by the revelation that I was not having a smooth life.
But one full of struggles deep inside.
And the truth.. That all along.. since that day.
I have been living in uncertainty.. in doubt.. in myself.
That I have been truly been shaken off the rock.
Today, even as I had approached the altar.
I did not expect God to touch me like this.
I did not expect Him to touch on what has been keeping me saddened.
But He did.. He wholly came into me.
I took that step.. I said to God..
Father, I come to you with an empty heart, with a dry heart, yearning, hungering for your presence in me. For I know that I have been drained by these struggles, but now I choose to come back to your word, and hold on to your truth. Let me let go.
That was not all.
Till Brother Darren came to speak into me.
He prayed, just like how God answered my call.
That God wants to cleanse me, He wants to relief me of all my burdens.
He spoke of my life being a dry desert, but God wants to pour out the living waters of heaven.
I cried.
I simply cried before the Lord.
The tears just flowed down.. and I heard the Lord's judgment.
Son, you have chosen to be pure. Cry my child, not because you are dry, but because I have filled you once again. However, this is my plan for you. Do not give up, continue to hold on to the very words you have received from me. Only that the time has not come.
I continued to stay still before God.
But I knew, deep inside that God has removed me of all my emptiness.
And now there is no stopping me from following God wholeheartedly.
I can truly press on, for now I know that God has planned it for me.
Till the very day God's will be done, I will trust in Him.
For I was once broken by separation.
And God, for the thousandth time, will bring me life.

I believe you understand.
May God speak to you.

long long long week.

2009-07-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

and i jus realised that i forgot to meet boonjin on thurs -.-
im posting today.. cos im having mixed feelings abt NCOship.
but i noe im just being sian at the fact that i have to slack for half a year.
then face a superr difficult squad of immature sec1s for the other half.
haizz.. and that i will not be able to go for any sp empowerment due to ATRs.
being really tired now.. so i shall not rant about what happened.
but still wanna gratz shooting team for getting champs.
hope i can be in the team next year xD.

blehhh. i guess there has really been alot happening..
since ojt started ive been freaking busy.
BUT I STILL WAN MY GUITAR.
hai. i long for the day i reach home in the afternoon.
tmr's sp interview.. looking foward to it :D

HAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA
i hate being emo but sometimes its good XD

Thank you Lord.

2009-07-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

For this day.
For the greatest anoiting i ever had.

how great.

2009-07-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

Today was really a great day.
FUEL we learnt much about 2nd chances.

Service was the best in my entire life.
Really, and I immediately could feel it when the spiritual high was at a Godly level in me.
However so, I felt that the sermon was not for me, for I love praying and I would do so when I can squeeze in the time.
Then, it is also by that I have been touched.
Every prayer I said, was for the generation.
There was once, God showed me a vision.
Of Ignyte ministry humbling before God.
Today, that vision became truth.
At altar call, I felt I didnt need to approach God.
But He called me forth, so I did.
And at the altar, I saw exactly what God's vision was.
That, touched me like never before.
For I knew that God was putting me through a time of change.
It was a call to me, that my purpose.
Is laid down, waiting for me to thread.
I took that first step, and I shouted out my prayers to God.
Child, you will receive many blessings. For you have chosen to be a blessing by being a blessing.
I only cried, when I saw the repentance on my fellow Ignyters.
For I knew God's happiness at that, and so was I.
Let it be that I will grow forever in Him.
For it will not be long till I am interviewed to be a SP.

phewwwwwww.

2009-07-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

i just finished finding the emails of all the shopping centres in sg.
zzzz.
andd i wanted to sleep early to compensate for sleeping at 2am each day..
haiz.
this week has been superr hectic..
with spam chem hw..
shooting trainings..
and loads of other crap.

AND NOW MAUMU SCARES ME.
HE WARNS ME THAT IVAN IS NOW A SUSPECTED CASE AND I SHLD WATCH OUT T.T
haiz.
still look foward to tmr..
SERVICE!

HAHHHHAHH
then hopefull bazaar on sun ((:

help...

2009-07-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

really breaking down soon..

SUPER.

2009-07-07T22:43:00.002+08:00

THE PAST FEW DAYS HAVE BEEN TOO SUPER FOR ME TO POST ON.
YESTERDAY HAD F19 OUTING
TODAY FIRST DAY OF SCH
OMG IMBAAAAAAAAA.

Let all praise ring.

2009-07-04T23:39:00.002+08:00

Oh Lord my God in You I put my trust
Oh Lord my God in You I put my hope
Oh Lord my God in You I put my trust
Oh Lord my God in You I put my hope

In You In You I find my peace
In You In You I find my strength
In You I live and move and breathe
Let everything I say and do
Be founded by my faith in You
I lift up holy hands and sing
Let the praises ring!

Oh Lord my God to You I give my hands
Oh Lord my God to You I give my feet
Oh Lord my God to You I give my everything
Oh Lord my God to You I give my life
- Let the praises ring lyrics

superr nice song.
can be used as a imba worship dance song or a song of stillness..
ALL ACCORDING TO THE DRUMMER.
XD XD XD
HAHHAHHHAH service was fun :DD
ALBERT!!!!! HEEEE
ANDD THE RANDOM CRAPPINESSSS.
OF BRYAN AND CLAIRE.
HAHHAHAHAHHA PLUS HAROLD+KEITH+JIEKAI.
SUPERRR STUPID.

Anyway the sermon was quite meaningful.
related to my TAWG almost entirely.
:D
Confidence in God ((:

dinner was okayyy...
not as boring XD
was trying out ezra's guitar..
my strumming is alr okay :D
and managed to learn some chords from chris sern XD
HAHAHAHAHHA

IM LOOKING FOWARD TO FINISHING MY HOMEWORK.
AND F19 GATHERING HAHAHAH

SP EMPOWERMENT.

2009-07-04T00:41:00.002+08:00

was funn :D
but the thing is..
once i reached there..
YVETTE AND HR WAS LIKE - EHH JOEL WE SAW YOU AT AMK HUB. IT WAS LIKE ME(hr) AND BERNICE SAW YOU THEN WE WERE LIKE EHHHH ITS JOEL!!!
lol.
really.

HAHHAAH sp empowerment really was a new thing to me.
really cool, brought many things to a whole new level.
andd im liking it alot.
XD

STARE WHAT STARE.
TMR'S SERVICE!
HAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA.
cya there!

SHOOTING. again

2009-07-02T14:17:00.003+08:00

HAHHAHAH had a superr fun time ytd at enming's house :D
HIS FAMILY GOT LOADS OF CRAP LURHH.
GUITAR.
E. GUITAR.
A. GUITAR.
KEYBOARD.
E. DRUM SET.
OMGGG I WANNA GO HIS HOUSE AGAIN..
AND LEARN GUITAR CHORDS :D
did alot of other crapp.. but i dun hav the time now D:
ahhaha will talk abt it later..

GOING TO SHOOTING TRAINING :D

homelearning..

2009-07-01T00:23:00.002+08:00

IS LOUSY..
ID RATHER GO TO SCH LURRHHHH.
NOT FUN ONEEEEEE.
I MISS GETTING HIGH IN SCH T.T

haizz.
anw im still anticipating the results of npcc exco o.O
andd its down to only me and pn for chairman position.
OMG WTH!
HAHAHAHAH

looking foward to finishing all my holiday hw! XD
ANDD F19 GATHERING!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAH

ohya who didnt read saturday's newspaper im gonna kill ya.
I HAVE A LOT WAS ON STRAITS TIMES!!!!
YEAHHHHH.
we just rock.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ENMING.
OMG I NEEDA GET A PRESENT.
IM GOING TO UR HOUSE TO PLAY DRUMS :D

its not over.. till its over.

2009-06-28T01:31:00.002+08:00

but it is.
HHAHAHAAHAH
nahhh it will never end.
the superr imabness of IHAL will lay a legacy.
and everything we have gone through, will be the new beginnings of an entire new level.
haizzz.
even uncle sanjit said the video team could be professionals alr.

BUT I REALLY THINK VIDEO TEAM IS THE BEST.
EVERYDAY WE HAVE A 2HR PLUS DINNER.
WASTING THE TIME BY LAUGHING AT JOSEPH SAY.
HE IS SUPERR FUNNY.
NOTHING LIKE HIS SISTER.
ANDD WE GET SO BORED FILMING PPL.
WE WENT TO MEMORIZE EVERY LINE
AND EVERY DANCE STEP.
SO WHEN THEY HAVE A CRISIS... VIDEO TEAM CAN TAKE OVER XD
HAHHAAHHAHAHA WE ONLY HAD 1 WEEK TO DO THIS.
AND WE DID IT.
BY THE GRACE OF GOD.

remembering how superrr video team was..
how we could actually slack arnd..
passing my mac arnd and sounding the horn.
playing mafia warss.. XD
running arnd the chapel with joseph.
going to 7-11 at any point of time.
spamming all sorts of sweets and chocolates.
having fun with joseph's mobile cam..
taking close ups of jie kai..
and learning dance moves..
saying lines tgt with cast during rehearsals.
thinking of random parodies..
and letting joseph act it out HHAAAH
I JUST CANT STOP LAUGHING AT JOSEPH.
anw there's much more..
and this is just within video team..
if included the entire 120ppl of cast and crew..
XD

LOOKING FOWARD TO IHAL CAST AND CREW GATHERING.
ANDD THE CD! to be released in 1mth or so.
ANDD I WAN MY CREW TAG T.T

HAHAHAAHHAH i had my fun holidays :D
still got one more week XD
ANDD MAUMU WANS ME TO JOIN SHOOTING COMP 2010 o.O

Saved.

2009-06-27T02:04:00.001+08:00

THANK GOD FOR HOME LEARNING.
PHEWWW.
I WAS PRAYING FOR GOD'S GRACE.
TO LET ME COMPLETE MY HW.
AND HE REALLY HELPED ME.
HALLELUJAH!

GREAT JOB

2009-06-25T23:51:00.001+08:00

to everyone in i have a lot.
HAHAHHAHAH
was awesomely retarded.
I TOOK CLOSE UPS OF JIE KAI XD
HAHAHAHAHHAHHA

BUT TMR SHALL BE PERFECTION.

THIS IS THE BIGGEST FAIL OF MY LIFE.

2009-06-25T02:15:00.002+08:00

THIS IS THE BIGGEST FAIL OF MY LIFE..
THIS IS THE BIGGEST
THIS IS THE BIGGEST..
WELCOME TO MY FAIL LIFE.

THIS IS THE BIGGEST FAIL OF MY LIFE
FAIL NOOBS AND FAILS WILL FAIL IN MY LIFE
BRING ON AND FAIL THE FAILURES
NOT JUST ANOTHER FAILURE WITH ME
NOT JUST ANOTHER FAILMAN WITH HIM
WELCOME TO MY FAIL LIFE

:D
after watching I Have A Lot you'll see where i got this.
i suddenly got random XD

I HAVE A LOT

2009-06-23T00:50:00.001+08:00

really.
of everything.

MY MACBOOK..

2009-06-21T01:09:00.000+08:00

GOT STOLEN BY CRYSTAL.
AND NOW I HAVE 115 NEW PHOTOS.
haiz.

LIFE CONFERENCE

2009-06-19T12:25:00.002+08:00

WAS OWNAGE.
i just cant tell ya how imba it was.
service + service.
then workshop.
THEN NIGHT REVIVAL.
THE WHOLE DAY WAS PURELY THE BEST SERMONS EVER.
And one thing I really got touched about.
I never cried.
Till I prayed for others.

STC STC STC

2009-06-18T00:04:00.002+08:00

STC STC STC STC STC
THE BEST CAMP EVER.
I CAN NEVER EVER FORGET HOW MUCH FUN I HAD.
BUT STC WASNT ALL
I HAVE A LOT REHEARSAL WAS JUST AS HIGH.

STILL.
STC STC STC STC STC
LIST OF MEMORABLE STUFF
1. MY LIFE CHART
2. LIAN YU
3. HONG LIANG
4. SUICIDE
5. CAMPFIRE
6. IRC
7. MAZE
8. STARZ
9. NOT BATHING
10. HIGH
11. SPLIT PERSONALITY
12. LIAN YU
13. LIAN YU

ITS NOT IN ORDER AT ALL.
HAHAHAHAHAH ILL CONTINUE TMR.
OHHHHHH.

ITS LIFE CONFERENCE TMR!!!! XD

o.o

2009-06-14T21:47:00.001+08:00

haizzzzz.
though i was partially high ytd..
i still cant say that i am not emo now.
sooo yeahh.
just dont get too worried over me.
AND PLEASE.
dont be like me.

soo for this week.
mon-wed STC
thurs PIR+life conference
fri life conference

BYE BYE WEEK 3

happy bday claire :D

2009-06-13T23:03:00.002+08:00

HAHA so yeahh the title says it XD
though i was kinda last minute thing..
when i onli saw daniel's sms like this morning 2am -.-
AHHHHAHAHAH

i shall talk about pir..
actually on the whole it isnt too bad..
as in its like SUPER slack compared to trainings etc.
after each section got so much free time.
andd i seriously dont get why some of us get pissed off..
when we get scolded.
we are not justified in talking back at all..
when all that they say is true.
still.. just take it in, remember.
OKAY SO ONTO THE PERFORMANCE SO FAR.
its all okayyyyy... and our group was abit better :D
HAHHAAH I MANAGED TO BOIL WATER WITH WET LEAVES HAH.
:D :D :D
i have confidence for nco XD

OHYA LEMME TELL YOU WAD HAPPENED AT CLAIRE'S HOUSE.
NOTHING MUCH ACTUALLY HAHHAHHAHHA
though the main part was how stupid and retarded everyone was.
XD
oh and i can conclude from today that crystal is retarded as well.
took mrt home with her..
HAHAHHAHH I MANAGED TO SUPPRESS MYSELF FROM ASKING WHETHER SHE KNEW TAB.
:D

...

2009-06-13T01:00:00.002+08:00

It has been confirmed, at least to me.
I cannot suppress it anymore.
I am really getting sadder and sadder.
I do not know why.

woohoo.

2009-06-11T20:36:00.002+08:00

i have alot is going to be the best thing for me this hols.
XD BUT ITS REALLY COOL.

ANDD I REALISED I GOT VERY LITTLE HOMEWORK.
JUST CHEM, CHI ACE, MATHS ACE, IHC ACE.
THATS ALL :D

HAHHHAHHHAAH.
But this holiday seems different.
Each day I'm getting more and more emotional.
haiz.

XD

2009-06-11T01:45:00.001+08:00

i dont have the time for long posts D:

-.-

2009-06-10T01:01:00.001+08:00

joel hasnt touched his hw at all.

wah..

2009-06-08T20:03:00.001+08:00

i had a badd headache during training today D:
i guess it was heatstroke actually O:
HAHHHAHH felt better after that anw XD

ohh and i forgot to post this..
THANK YOUZ FOR THE PRAYERS ON SAT.
but really, such a big event.
a minor problem such as me getting sick can ruin the whole thing.
AND ALSO LET ME BE ABLE TO RUSH TO CHURCH ON TIME.
KAYYYZ.

MADDY

2009-06-07T23:22:00.002+08:00

I SHALL CONT WITH ME THANKING MAD :D
okayy ill stop it XD
andd the best thing i can do to repay herr..
is to listen to what she told me to do.
TALK MORE -.-
HAHHAHHHAHAAHAHHA

okayy lemme move on to dinner :D
HAHHHHAH it was stupid XD
andd sarah's superr suanning again..
pam asked me why i was studying on the bus..
when i was only looking through the imba stack of hw i had.
still, i noe it was sarah who called her to ask me -.-
dinner itself was boring D:
HAHHHHAAHHAH
dun feel like talking abt it anymore -.-
uberr sian.

post 300 XD

2009-06-07T15:19:00.002+08:00

lemme continue from where i left off ytd :D
OH AND I WOKE UP AT 3PM TODAY XD
okayyyyyy..

after PIR interview i went to kap with enming and jingzhan
HAHHAH we talked alot of crap of the freaking interviewers.
anw went home.. then had lunch with family :D
aft that went off to church..
AND I OVERSLEPT ON THE BUS.
but i managed to get off at singpost XD
THEN I SAW SARAH. -.-

fuel was quite erm.. challenging for me.
haizz.. i dun wanna talk abt this.

service was cool.
HAHAHAH good sermon on leaders..
and the things we did :D
so yeahhh it was funn.
i jus wanna take this chance to thank sis madd.
HAHHHHAHAH
but really, for letting me share everything with her..
and inspiring me to be a leader, just like her.
andd she was the first person to really make me feel welcome
when i first came to ignyte.
OH AND HOW SHE MADE ME FAMOUS
WITH THE SAME PHOTO AGAIN AND AGAIN :D
THANKS ALOT MADDD.

ohh i gtg D:

CHAIR HERE I COME.

2009-06-06T22:59:00.002+08:00

pheww.
today was a freaking freaking long day.
but i dont feel like blogging on the entire day now..
so ill just tell ya wad happened XD

PIR INTERVIEW
FUN AFT THAT
FUEL
SERVICE
DINNER
FUN AFT THAT
TAXI HOME

okay thats just an uber short summary.. but i wanna talk abt pir interview XD
wahhh dorje open the interview with - TELL US MORE ABOUT YOURSELF.
lucky i replied some stuff abt me sacrificing SLC for NPCC.
HAHHAHAAH actually i only crapped up once, but wasnt too serious.
i assumed that SS head shld be one who will help others..
BUT rainbow say i implying that SS chair have to do more..
anw they didnt really take that i crapped up.
AND THE LAST STATEMENT - I REALLY HOPE YOU CAN COME BACK AS A CI AFTER THESE 1.5 YEARS..
WTH!?

i shall leave the rest for tmr..
ohya i just came back from taking taxi with carolyn and eunice..
I NEVER KNEW CAROLYN STAYED AT BP.
HAHAHAHAHAHA

I have to tell you this, I felt that God is telling you something, listen intently to Him.

phew..

2009-06-06T00:59:00.000+08:00

If I really manage to tide through this holiday.
I only have one to thank.
Thank You Lord.
For everything, seriously.

today is da day.

2009-06-04T22:03:00.002+08:00

just went to watch terminator with the my imba squadmates!
hahahha the movie was quite cool :D
though the plot abit funny and complicated.
its quite good actually XD
other than that today was LMSC..
uber boring lahhh.
i think everyone was sleeping -.-
HAHAHHA its a lame NPCC version of slc.
but still.. id rather go slc lorrr.
BLEH.

And I feel that I should really share what happened yesterday.
After I felt really sad that I missed SLC and other stuff.
I decided to pray, and think of God.
And I told Him.
Father, at this very moment, I
come to you with a broken heart,
seek your face with a worried mind,
search for your light with blinded eyes,
look to you with a pure desire for you.
Lord, let there be a breakthrough, Your breakthrough in me.
However, it did not come immediately.
But still, it came, I felt it.
God's breakthrough, God's presence.
I felt this burning and fire within me, and I heard Him say.
Child, you do not have to see me nor hear me to experience and know me. All you need to do, is believe in me.
Then, I decided to let myself open up to God, and I said.
Father, I feel sad, and that I am not worthy.
But without any happening, I believed in Him, and I was clearing of that thought.
Lord, how am I to do so?
He replied.
Does it matter my child? I understand exactly what you are going through, but the question is not how, for everything has been laid out, but rather, Will you go?
I believe that the answer is clear.
And when I doubted, because I was going through a lot.
I am more motivated, for God told me.
That is the same reason why I have set you apart.

conflicts.

2009-06-03T19:48:00.002+08:00

So yeahhh these few days was just unit camppp.
though i wont go into details..
it was quite a failure though.
except the last day was quite fun.
haizzz.

maybe i just feel totally drained out.. so yeah im boring.
but throughout the camp i was being emoish..
that i couldnt be a group buddy cos of smo
that i couldnt go slc - even more cos i saw grace..
that my group was fail
that the whole camp was fail

...
well God did do something about it.
he really made me think of whether slc would really be great for me.
and well my conclusion was that it wouldnt be.
im just too tired to think about the really fun things that happened..
SO YEAHHH.
ILL JUST LIST THEM DOWN.

SEC 3s CLEARING UP ALL THE LEFTOVER FOOD - TOTAL OF LIKE 11 PACKETS OF STUFF.
TALKING CRAP ABOUT EZOR - LOL
WATER BOMBS - RANDOM ZAMMING
THE IMBA PIR PEER ASSESSMENT FORM - UBER STRESS AND HIGH
lots more but this is the main part.

BYE.

2009-05-31T23:49:00.001+08:00

I WILL GONE TILL WEDNESDAY :D
AND ILL BE BACK.
though i dunno how im gonna survive maumu with my hair.
HAHAHAHHAHHAH
but im looking foward to it XD
UNIT CAMP 09 FTW!

awesomee :D

2009-05-31T15:37:00.002+08:00

AHHAAHAHHAHA
time to talk abt the awesome ytd.
began with APMOPS hosting XD
waited like crapp for the retarded pri sch students.
BUT WE TALKED LOADS OF CRAPP.
INCLUDING THE HIGH PENGNING AGAIN HAHAHAHHHAHAHAH.
and i cant rmb the name of someone whos in the same tuition class as rosanne.
AND THE STUPIDITY HAHHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAAH
okayy i shall stopp it XD

FUEL FUEL FUEL.
ROCKEDDDDD.
AHHHAHHAHAHAH the best fuel i ever had.
played some wierd game XD
BUT IT WAS FUN.
THOUGH I WAS ABT TO BREAK DOWN DUE TO LACK OF SLEEP.
I MANAGED TO HAVE FUN HAHAHAHAHAHHA
was uber retarded :D

though the even more fun part.
DINNER!
HAHHHAAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHHAH
had dinner with upper sec :D
we talked abt superr stupid stuff lol
and we sang quite alot too XD
though i was singing like in the background cos i was having loads of phelgm D:
its was fun :D
HAROLD SINGS LIKE A GIRL XD
and yvette does sing well, guess worship min has too many female singers HAHHA
AND THEY HAVNT CONTACTED ME AFTER SIX MONTHS.
blehhh.. anyway i can sing the chorus of The Altar And The Door :D
AND THE UBER FUN PART.
SARAHHHHHH AND HER BRO.
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA SHE WAS FREAKING FUNNY.
HAD TO FOLLOW HER TO FIND DANIEL AT THE 14TH FLOOR.
AND SHE WAS SCREAMING LIKE CRAPP LAHHHHHH.
-.-
anyway they were being freaking stupid after that..
BUT I WAS ACTUALLY HAVING FUN :D
dunno why.. maybe my sadisticness.
HAHHAHAHAHAHAAH

had loads more fun than i could write here..
BUT ITS JUST THE BEGINNING OF THE HOLIDAYS.
I CANT WAIT FOR NEXT SATURDAY!

oh and i will be having camp till wednesday.
BYEEEE :D

Draining.

2009-05-31T00:07:00.002+08:00

Today was a really long day.
Though the only thing I want to post about is service.
AND MAYBE THE JOURNEY HOME.

God spoke through me alot again, and this time He really made me cry.
Father, as we come to you, hungering and yearning for you. I pray Lord, that you will open their eyes to you, for I believe in you that your presence is in this place.
Then I heard the Lord say,
My child, for you have put others before you, I will reveal myself to them. Still, I am pleased with you, blessed are those who have not seen nor felt, yet still believed.
At that moment, I really felt God.

Another time, there was this one moment when we were singing "Here in my life".
I just broke down and cried when we sang the song.
I do not know why, it could be the rushing of memories during surge camp, or just purely God's touch.
But what really mattered, was God's words.
My child, you understand why you are crying, do you not? For you have been faithful, for you have not been faithful. Now you know, Rise Up, and become that Declarer of God!
At that very moment, we were singing "With Everything", and God let me shout it out - JESUS OUR GOD.

The final time, was truly my purpose.
At the last part of service, when we were called to the altar.
I began to pray that God will come into the lives of those who are faithful and are willing to come to the altar.
I prayed like I have never seen myself pray before.
But the thing is, I don't remember what I prayed.
God prayed through me.
And He made it true, people's hearts were humbled, many had felt Him.
I heard His voice, This is the beginning of your purpose.

Since I do not have enough time..
I wont be talking abt the rest of today, today.
maybe later..
but for now - DANIEL AND SARAH UR FREAKING IRRITATING -.-
waitt maybe not :D

zz.

2009-05-29T21:02:00.000+08:00

I GOT 2.13 FOR MY TERM MSG!!!
AND ITS THIRD IN 3O2 :D :D :D
AHHAHAHAHHAHAH

but im freaking tired now D:
cya.

This is.

2009-05-28T18:50:00.002+08:00

My child, do not give up.
For you have come to the altar to find me.
I will grant you what you need.
For in your heart, you know that all you need is me.
I have set you apart, for a purpose.
A purpose which no one else but a servant of God could have.
This is, the purpose of a declarer.
I have called you to be, Joel.
If you know the meaning of my name, you will understand.

anyway about today..
i somehow feel uber sian now.
haizzzzzzzz.
today was pure crap anyway.. with lessons without any teacher at all. -.-
but i have like a whole zuowen to do now..
BLEH.
tmr's last day,
yet it feels like the first..

:D i am happy :))

2009-05-27T20:20:00.002+08:00

PANEL DISCUSSION ROCKED!!!!
COS I WAS FREAKING DRAMA HAHAHAHHAHAHA
made the assembly applaud :D

HAHAAHHAHA TODAY!
maths - SPAM ACE!
ihe - SG DREAMING
assembly - :D
ihc - CSI!
eng - IMBANESS..
phy - o.O

sooo.. the main imba thing abt today was.. GILBERT! HAHHAHHHAAH eng lesson we were like - WHERE IS MR GILBERT? thenn.. WE SAW HIM PLAYING FOOTBALL OUTSIDE AT THE GRASS PATCH.. WOW. AND WTH!!!!!!! SO COOL. CLASS 3O1 HAD A SNAKE IN THEIR CLASS O.O HAHHHAHHAH AND JONAS WAS FREAKING RETARDED. HE KICKED THE BALL AT THE SNAKE WHEN THE ESTATE OFFICE WORKER CAME TO TAKE IT AWAY. UBER LAME..

HAHHAHAHH so that was srsly the best part of today.
AND I THINK PN WILL BE THE ONLY ONE FIGHTING WITH ME FOR CHAIRMAN.
AND I WILL LOSE.
BLEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

here i am.

2009-05-26T21:02:00.002+08:00

God challenged me to blog on this.
So here I am.
God spoke through me, once again.
My child, press on.
For now I have given you the strength you asked me for.
Listen, child and you will be with me.
Equip me as your Godly armor.
Wield Jesus as your mighty shield.
Thrust the Word as your sword.
Do this, and soon enough.
The middle will no longer where you are.
But it will be your target.
Your target of lives, and reaching out to bring them to me.
Here I am Lord, I will go.

WHEE :D

2009-05-26T19:05:00.002+08:00

YAY I FINALLY FIXED MY HAIR.
WITH WAX XD
AHHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHH

and at least im gonna be ivan mak tmr..
phewwwww.
AND STEVEN FASTER GET ONLINE LARHHHHHHH
TMR DEADLINE FOR CHEM ACE!!!!!!!!!
haizz.
AND I SERIOUSLY CANT THINK OF A THIRD INITIATIVE FOR PIR..
plus the stupid reasons.
anyone bored help me plss.

TODAY!
PE - playy BB! OMG BEILONG IS UBER PRC OWNAGE
CHEM - WOW I SURVIVED.
CHI - WTH!
MATHS - ZZZ.
so today was uber boring and lame.
i have one comment for today - ivan pls stop being so freaking irritating.

anyway..

2009-05-25T21:08:00.001+08:00

on second thought..
angels and demons is a nice movie :D
HAHAHHAHAHAAHA
i did manage to enjoy it XD

CRAP LARHHHH

2009-05-25T20:17:00.002+08:00

MY HAIR LOOKS LIKE SOME TOOT.
ARGHHHHHHH THERES NOTHING I CAN DO ABT IT T.T
haiz. nvm..
AND I HAVE MY PANELLIST SPEECH DUE TMR..
WHEN JOEL YAP HAS NOT TOLD ME THE TOPIC AT ALL.
crapped up...

ANYWAYY...
i managed to spam 6 pages for lit exam today :D
hAAHHHAAHAH went quite well XD
the rest of today amazingly went super fast.
dunno why :O
UNTIL YIRUI AND ZIHAO DRAGGED ME TO WATCH ANGELS AND DEMONS WITH THEM.
actually didnt want to go cos i wanted to sleeeppppp.

HAHAAHHA watched anyway -.-
AND I THINK ITS A PURE WASTE OF TIME LARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
though i feel that the plot is quite cool with loads of twists..
i totally disagree with the religious points in the story.
God created science, so that it may benefit us.
Just like how He had intended us to have freedom in the old testament, we misused it, and therefore we turned away from God.
This scenario is similar in the story.
And also, the protagonist may not be the "bad guy" after all.
All that he did, it could be God's call right?
Maybe he was overwhelmed by his thoughts that he did not have faith in God.
But the sure thing was that he was caught in the middle.
In the end, surely he went to heaven.
The director did his homework, "Father into your hands I commit my spirit."
SO DONT WATCH IT IF UR A BELIEVER.
COS IT DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE AT ALL.

lalala.

2009-05-24T20:54:00.002+08:00

this post shall be a compilation of all the lame and retarded things which happened on friday, sat and today HAHAHAH

FRIDAY..
Operation Opulence HAHA
team name - JONAS GOH SIR
motto - JOEL IS SWEET
LOL all thought up by pengning :D
OH AND OUR USELESS IC.. JONAS GOH
who TRIED to command us but failed HAHHAAH
and we made peiyin - our school ic..
RUN WITH US MUHAHAHAHHAAH
so fun XD
most of the time me and pn sprinting ahead :D:D:D
at the end pengning was like..
THIS MARKET IS NOT PRACTICAL AT ALL.
hahhahaha.
AND THE STUPID GAME!
where we got blind folded and had to pick pingpong balls from a pail of water using plastic tools :D
I OWNED LAHHHH.
didnt need anyone to tell me where the balls were XD
the first time i dipped my hand in i got one out lol
other than that we got 3rd :D
and we took quite alot of photos HAHHAH
will upload on facebook XD
though the whole thing was quite fun really :D

SATURDAY..
the only really fun part was FUEL of cos..
and i was captain for captain's ball :D
all was fun until.. DENNIS CAME TO BLOCK ME.
ARGHHHH FREAKING DIFFICULT TO CATCH LURHHH
then when ur like throw so freaking high and i cant reach behind me..
i was about to shout - I KNOW MY ARMS CAN BEND MORE THAN 180 DEGREES LAH BUT NOT SO MUCH.
XD XD XD

SUNDAY!
WENT FOR LIVE CHARITY EVENT PHOTO SHOOT.
hAHAHHAAHAH and so coincidental lorrrrr.
XD XD XD HAHAAH
had lots of fun while waiting :D
THEN THE PHOTO SHOOT ITSELF WAS THE BEST.
i became the retarded bag man XD
HAHAHHHAH shall see how retarded i look on the booklet :D
other than that..
I MISSED FUN JAM T.T
I SHALL GO NEXT MONTH!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

ohno.
lit exam tmr.

Declarer.

2009-05-23T23:31:00.002+08:00

I am overwhelmed.
By the amount of work I have.
And the ultimate Grace of God.
Today and yesterday, God touched me many times.
But truly, the real touch I had from God was today.
Sister Carol prayed for me, and I clearly remember what she said.
"As He begins to love others with all his heart, Father I pray that He will begin to embark on a higher level of Faith in you, a deeper work in him will be done. That you will open up his very ears to listen to you, every word that you want to tell him, for he is yearning to know you more. As he yearns and hungers for you, he will forget about himself and know that it is all, only about you Father. As he dies to himself and carries the cross each day, he will rise up to be whoever you want him to be."
Right after that, I decided to lay everything aside.
And listen to Him, yearn for Him.
My Child
And the words flowed out of my mouth.
You shall be.
A speaker of Truth
A preacher of the Word
A disciple of the Lord
A servant in His name
A leader of His glory
A DECLARER OF GOD.
I just let Him continue to speak to me, though all I truly heard from Him was this.
But immediately after that, all that I said through Him.
Brother Kah Fei said to the congregation.
I heard from God once again.
A mouthpiece which is blessed
A channel for my words.

2009-05-23T00:32:00.000+08:00

we got 3rd for oo..
im too tired to post much now..
lots of stuff to do tmr.
seeya

EXCO!

2009-05-21T21:10:00.002+08:00

WHEEEEEE IM SUPER HYPED UP FOR EXCO
AHAHAAHHAAHHA GOGOGOGOGO FOR EXCO!
but still, im stuck at the form -.-

HAAHHH TODAY!
ihc - EMBARKING OF ACE
ihe - ON EXAM
eng - COMPRE
math - COORDINATE GEO!
chi - yingyongwen..
phy - WORK ENERGY POWER

blehhh today wasnt much. NO WAIT.
TODAY'S SECOND RECESS WAS THE BEST.
IT STARTED WITH A PARENT SITTING AT THE PORCH.
THEN THE RETARDED PEOPLE BEGAN TO DISTURB HIM THRU THE WINDOW..
FREAKING FUNNY
other than that was being extra (again) at shooting comp training
HAHAHHHAH so basically i just used the npcc room
TO DRAFT OUT MY PIR FORM AHAHAHAH
wahhh staying in the npcc room al
one is like super imba
finally you get to stay there are use it..
AND I WILL HAVE IT ONCE I GET INTO EXCO!!!!!
MUHAHAHAHH
okay im getting overconfident..
hAHHAHAHAA but i still can get into exco :D
cos if any of the imba ppl compete with me i cfm lose one T.T

CSM!

2009-05-20T20:09:00.002+08:00

Let Your kingdom come on earth. Let Your will be done
Let every kingdom of this earth bow.

Let the sinners sing for joy, we are saved by grace
Let every saint break through these doors and shout

You’re calling out, “who will go?”

I will go. I will live the life. I’ll give it all for Jesus Christ.
I’ll tell the world that You are God.
I will go. Hear my battle cry. Give me wings so I can fly
and tell the world that You are God.

Here am I, here am I, I will give all that is mine.
Here am I, here am I, Jesus come and spend my life.

I will go. I will live the life.
I’ll give it all for Jesus Christ. I’ll tell the world that You are God.
I will go. Hear my battle cry.
Give me wings so I can fly and tell the world that You are God
- I Will Go lyrics
each time i listen to the dialogue somewhere in the song, never once did i fail in feeling God's presence, as if He was calling me to go.

OKAY TODAY!
csm was a total bore.
well exco talk was quite okay..
and now i wanna be exco chair :D
HAHAHAHAHH i will try XD
lan was uber siannn.

haiz i dunno why but i felt emoish today..
though i feel much happier now after praying.
HAHHHAHHAAHHA but then..
it troubles me, that now it has become more and more frequent.
yet God's answer remains the same - Press On.
Still, I dont know what am i pressing on towards.
Still, I will go.

bleeeee.

2009-05-19T20:19:00.002+08:00

soo this blogskin is unstable -.-
NEVERMIND.
ytd was nth much, jus a stupid CSM rehearsal.

TODAY!
woke up with a bad cold.
coughed and and running nose like crapp.
stayed that way until PE.
where we played BB.. and miraculously i felt much better..
THEN THE MOST SIGNIFICANT OF THE DAY
FIRE DRILL DURING RECESS.
blehhhhh that lahhhhhh.. was eating halfway.
lucky i only bought bread and could keep it XD
but the saddest thing is it ended exactly when our recess would end -.-
HAHAHHAAA then chem.
just went through abit of stuff..
and formed pairs for ACE.
AND STEVEN WANTS TO DO SOME REDOX THING I DUNNO.
up to him.. ill jus do wad i can XD
CHI.. well at last hon is willing to give us extra marks.
BUT I STILL FAIL. -.-
still hoping that ms ang will be able to key in the marks..
which will really help my msg T.T
maths.. well was replaced by health check o.O
HAHAHA i didnt bring my health booklet.
anyway all they checked was my backbone. so yeah nth much..

well other than that was me being extra at shooting comp training.
at first i was purely extra..
until mr tan wanted to talk to me..
he said that during prac shoot i was quite good.
grouping, aim everything quite okay.. until this year.
then he gave me one chance to shoot.
well.. i didnt shoot well.
but it was due to my stance actually.
my aiming was freaking imba.. but my stance made me too unstable.
ohh well.. ILL JUST EXTRA AGAIN ON THURS!
ermm now ill extra to start on publications.

TOMORROW IS CSM!!!!!!
and ivan is still being lame.. dunno he whether will let me raise flag -.-
HAHAHAH looking foward to whatever we are going to do after CSM!
be it lan or movie.. HAHAAH long time since i went lan o.O
shall go play dota now.

crapp

2009-05-18T20:25:00.000+08:00

the blogskin suddenly crapped up.
will fix it asap.
:D

this world needs.

2009-05-18T01:19:00.002+08:00

What this world needs
Is not another one hit wonder with an axe to grind
Another two bit politician peddling lies
Another three ring circus society
What this world needs
Is not another sign waving super saint that's better than you
Another ear pleasing candy man afraid of the truth
Another prophet in an Armani suit

CHORUS:
What this world needs is a Savior who will rescue
A Spirit who will lead
A Father who will love them in their time of need
A Savior who will rescue
A Spirit who will lead
A Father who will love
That's what this world needs

What this world needs
Is for us to care more about the inside than the outside
Have we become so blind that we can't see
God's gotta change her heart before He changes her shirt
What this world needs
Is for us to stop hiding behind our relevance
Blending in so well that people can't see the difference
And it's the difference that sets the world free

CHORUS

(Dialogue)

CHORUS

Jesus is our Savior, that's what this world needs
Father's arms around you, that's what this world needs
That's what this world needs

exactly what does this world need?
is God.
for us to stop hiding.
for us to not shield our faith.
for us not to to see with our eyes, but with His.
for us to use God to bring salvation.
for us not be the only way, but to create every way.
for us to never be afraid.
all we need is Jesus.
and to let every path to Him be lit.
and to open every eye to them.
and let them see that He is good.
that we cannot be the one dragging the gospel down.
that we cannot cling on to the gospel totally.
that we cannot hold back in Him.
that we must know, we are not part of Jesus.
But Jesus is a part of us.
Jesus is the way, but we are not the only way to Jesus.
We are a way, but it can only be true.
if we let the Father's love shine through.
This world needs the truth.
not our disrupted interpretation because we hold back.
but God's direct anoiting.
This world needs the Father.

Casting Crowns

2009-05-17T23:21:00.002+08:00

The Altar and The Door
Careless, I am reckless
I'm a wrong way traveling, slowly unraveling shell of a man
Burnt out, I'm so numb now
That the fire's just an ember way down in the corner of my cold, cold heart

Lord, this time I'll make it right
Here at the altar I lay my life
Your kingdom come but my will was done
My heart is broken

As I cry
Like so many times before
But my eyes
Are dry before I leave the floor
Oh Lord, I try
But this time, Jesus, how can I be sure
I will not lose my follow-through
Between the altar and the door?

Here at the altar
Oh my world so black and white
How could I ever falter
What You've shown me to be right

Lord, this time I'll make it right
Here at the altar I lay my life
Your kingdom come but my will was done
My heart is broken

As I cry
Like so many times before
But my eyes
Are dry before I leave the floor
Oh Lord, I try
But this time, Jesus, how can I be sure
I will not lose my follow-through
Between the altar and the door?

I'm trying so hard
To stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me

Jesus
I'm trying so hard
To stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me

Oh Lord, I cry
Like so many times before
But my eyes
Are dry before I leave the floor
Oh Lord, I try
But this time, Jesus, how can I be sure
I will not lose my follow-through
Between the altar and the door?

Lord, can I be sure?
Yes you can, for I am who I am in you

one of the many many great songs i have now.
i really love the new songs in my ipod.
so THANKS ALOT :D

D:

2009-05-17T20:27:00.002+08:00

im gonna die.
my hair is like freaking long.
im srsly dead.

other than that.
im no longer in shooting comp.
AND IM HAPPY.

OMG I HAVE TO PREPARE FOR PANELLIST SPEECH WITH DR HON.
and loads of stuff
might be flag raising on wednesday :D

looking foward to a slacky week!
full of actually empty meetings and stuff.
HAHHAAHA

AND FUN JAM ON SAT!

LONG DAY.

2009-05-16T23:39:00.002+08:00

today was a really long day..
and im getting headaches now..
lemme list out wad happened.

OPEN HOUSE
FUEL
SERVICE
DINNER

okay thats a super blurr outline.
OPEN HOUSE.
my father drove me to sch today...
had to wake up at 5am after sleeping at 3am.
thenn i actually forgot to bring my structure.
after some briefing we started setting up..
uber stressing for me.... lots of stuff lahh.
the open house itself was okay..
with me commanding only a little bit..
running arnd the sch sorting out logs..
and playing with flag drill :D
oh and at one part..
we changed our tactics to calling ppl to see our booth.
ULTIMATE SUCCESS.
spammage of pple came o.O
but of cos.. there were loads of fail parts.

TWO RIFLES DAMAGED.
i know that they were purely accidental, but srsly we were not handling them properly.
PEOPLE CROWDING ARND EVEN WITH TINGYIT.
haiz.. i dunno wad to say.
PEOPLE SLACKING IN NP ROOM EVEN WHEN WE DONT HAVE ENOUGH PEOPLE.
fail.
seriously lahh.
i have made up my mind, im gonna work like crapp to get into npcc exco 2010.

okay on the way to church.
i actually thought i lost my keys >.<
lucky i found it XD
but really i was freakin scared.
btw i left my pencil box in the np room.

HAHAA I ACTUALLY WAS EARLY FOR FUEL.
i was freaking tired during both fuel and service though.
and today felt so fast -.-
FUEL was good, spent time blessing everyone.
actually my testimony wasnt complete, but i shortened it anyway.

SERVICE was great.
the message was clear.
I AM FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE.
each time i say it out, i feel closer to Him.
Every demoralising sentence, i break them down in His name.
No longer will I say i cannot shoot well
No longer will I say i am unable to do well in chi
FOR I AM FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE.
IN GOD'S EYES, WE ARE BEAUTIFUL.
FOR HE CREATED US, AND HE MADE US PERFECT.
For He is the father, and we are His children.

So for dinner, nothing much to say.
However I encountered God in a awesome manner.
At Trumpet Praise, i was looking for my name in the keytags.
i thought i couldnt find it.
then it dropped on the floor.
SEEK AND YOU WILL FIND.
that really made me trust in Him.
i bought the keytag :D

HAHAHHAHA though that can never be everything that happened today..
BYE.

my imbaness.

2009-05-16T00:50:00.002+08:00

okay today was lame.
with me getting full marks for rifle knowledge.
plus rainbow saying that i had 4 tests.
then suddenly all the seniors come talk to me.
tingyit said i was super tank.
and damn imba.
weilin said my open house work nt bad, shld join logs GO DIE.
zhen wei plus qing yang both say i zai.

COS I REALLY HAD 4 TESTS
AND I NEEDED TO DO OPEN HOUSE STUFF
AND I DUNNO HOW THE HELL PPLE CAN FAIL RIFLE KNOWLEDGE.
WHEN I MUGGED WHILE DOING OPEN HOUSE
FOR LIKE LESS THEN THIRTY MINS.
fail.

open house OT!

2009-05-16T00:11:00.001+08:00

TMR'S OPEN HOUSE WILL BE OWNAGE.
THAT I WILL SAY.

pheww.

2009-05-14T21:34:00.002+08:00

tests are finally over.
i dont bother how it went.
cos all that matters it that its over.
i no longer need to sleep at 3am.
XD XD XD

haiz open house is finally materialising.
with all the plans finally up.
HAHHAHAHAH

i feel bored.
so ill stop here today.....
really needing sleep now -.-

WAHHHHHHHHHH

2009-05-13T21:17:00.002+08:00

OPEN HOUSE LOGISTICS IS KILLING ME.
I GOT TOLD TODAY THAT I HAVE TO GET THE LOGISTICS BY TODAY.
but i got them anyway.

hmm results so far.
chem - a1
phy - a1
maths - a2(first test)
current msg : 1.5
projected results....
eng - b3
chi - c6(hopefully)
IH - b3
projected msg : 2.6
Hope that my IH can be pulled up to a2..

HAHAHHA other than results and open house..
the uber significant thing of today - ASSEMBLY.
IVAN MAK'S speech was frikin imba.
one of our comments - "I think your speech is just a bunch of topic sentences without any elaboration"
I THINK EVERYONE AGREED WITH THAT.

nth much left..
IHC TEST AND MATHS TEST TMR!
IM GONNA MUG TILL 3AM AGAIN.
CYA.

haiz.

2009-05-12T22:55:00.002+08:00

okay i decided that there are some things that i want to let out here..
these days, it feels as if im really getting quieter and quieter.
these times, i have been ashamed at myself.
for i have been asking the same question as before.
when i know the answer - which is positive to me.
yet, i doubt.
when God gives me hope, i find it difficult to trust in Him.
I yearn for the feeling that I can be assured.
I really pray, that I can find peace.
That everything will be settled in His hands.
and, i can be still.

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are God

bang no more :((

2009-05-12T22:12:00.002+08:00

goodbye shooting :((
haiz today was uber.
and i jus finished my dinner - WTH
shall not blog too long today..
cos too much happened and im lazy.
HAHHAHAH time to mug lit.

NO D:

2009-05-11T20:27:00.002+08:00

the weekend is ending D:
and tests will all come soon..
with shooting team selection coming up..
plus 2nd class drill badge test..
plus airsoft shooting tmr..
plus plus plus plus..
T.T CRYYYYYYYYYYYY

soooo today i went with daddy
TO WITHDRAW MONEY FROM MY BACK ACCOUNT T.T
WE WAITED FOR LIKE 50MINS..
so he took how much he paid for this lappy...
it feels so sadddddddd T.T
suddenly waste so much money on this macbook..
haiz anyway i will use it well :D

AHHHHHHHH T.T
AIRSOFT SHOOTING
LIT TEST
CHI COMMON TEST
IHC TEST
MATHS TEST
2ND CLASS BADGE TEST
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

and im not in the mood to study.
im alr confident for maths..
but ihc and ihe i dont feel like doing anything at all..
haiz i dont even know the possible tested themes..
will mug before airsoft tmr.

so for today i was feeling quite emo for some reason.
Till I asked God - Why am I sad?
He replied - No, you are not.
At that moment, I felt joyful again.
I felt really.. miraculous.

BREAK FREE

2009-05-10T20:31:00.002+08:00

o.O today was mother's day XD
and i didnt do anything significant at all D:
HAHAHAHA i let me little bro do everything XD XD XD

apart from what happened today..
(which was nothing)..
I feel just like i just came back from Surge camp.
As if God placed me there spiritually.
God wanted to let me know, that He has not forgotten.
That He will stay with me.
When I need Him, He will come.
All I need is Faith, Trust and Hope.
I will continue to hear His word for my generation.
For this is what the Lord says.
This generation, will be the generation which will face many challenges like Jericho in Joshua's time. But it is also the generation that will strike down those walls, and bring all glory to God.
And the final sentence.
You will lead them.

Worship Exp!

2009-05-09T20:23:00.003+08:00

WOOTS I FINISHED ALL MY MATHS.
HAHA other than that im in church now heeee
Worship Experience was superr.
Though my legs are aching after loads of jumping.
I still want to continue worshiping.
Today.. God touched me like, 3-4 times?

So.. first was altar call.
I heard God's word.
And I fell.
Child, I have forgiven you.
I didn't cry, for I knew that it was not the end.
I said to God - Every life here, every word spoken, are for you.
Soon enough, I began to manifest in His spirit.
Though I can't remember word for word what He said through me.
I know that these words, I said.
Ignyte, rise up within Him, For He is here, He has come. He has consecrated us, worship Him.

Second was after I rose to my feet.
PDa said, do not be bothered by the person on the left or right.
Then God told me, Focus on me
I did just that.
And I recieved His word - Faith.
Everything came back, all the memories from Surge camp.
And I began to feel for others.
God, made me into that person, to love everyone.

-- I JUST REACHED HOME --

Third, was simply the song - Higher.
I began to remember the times He touched me.
The day He gave me a purpose.
Then, He spoke to me, through me.
I will lead you into a higher place, into a place that you will find me. However, you cannot forget those, who do not have me.
At the same time, PDa let us pray for other people.
At that moment, my heart cried.
It was exactly how God had assured me during Surge camp.
He was bringing me back to then, and now I know.
That He reassures our hearts, when we cry out to Him.

Fourth, and definitely never the last.
However it was the greatest encounter I had today.
I couldn't remember when it happened, but I remember exactly what happened.
God gave me a vision.
God stretched out His hand to me and said, Come my child.
I replied, What about these people here?
God assured me, Do not worry, for you have cared for them, so will I.
I trusted Him, and let Him bring me into His kingdom.
At the same time, I heard PDa say, The doors are still open to everyone.
My heart really cried out.
And I worshiped Him, and He gave me another vision.
Of hands reaching out to Him, and I heard Him saying.
These hands, are of the generation that will rise. And you have been set apart, for them.

There are many other ways that God reached out to me today.
But I know, its all about worshiping Him.
There is still alot that bothers me, but I know that God can do everything.
I choose God, and I break free.

Would you believe me, would you listen if I told you that
There is a love that makes the way, it never holds you back
Who would have thought that God would give his one and only Son
Taken a stand upon the cross to show his perfect love

Oh would you break free, would you break free get up and dance, in His love
His love never ends, yeah
There's no escaping the truth, there's no mistaking it's you
God forever we'll get up and dance, get up and dance and praise you
There's no escaping your love, there's no mistaking your light
Across the world we will get up and dance, get up and dance and praise you

Now is the time to take this freedom that has come our way
Offer our lives to see the glory of His name

And for all our days,
we are holding on,
holding on
To all your ways,
we are holding on,
holding on
To all You’ve said and you’ve done
We are holding on to Your love
Now we will dance

So won’t you break free won’t you break free, get up and dance Oh won’t you break free.
- break free lyrics
I will get up and dance.

im back to randoming.. for now XD

2009-05-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

okay lemme "summarise" wad actually happened ytd
first plan by kent.
EHH CLASS, RMB THIS HORRR
TAP TABLE ONCE, MEANS GO TOILET WRITE ANS
TAP TABLE TWICE, MEANS GO TOILET COPY ANS
TAP THRICE, MEANS YOU GIVE UP.
AND ANYONE GIVE UP, WHOLE CLASS GIVE UP TGT
THEN WE GET MODERATION MARKS!
freaking funny lahh the way he say it.
second plan.
when we were on the way to comp lab for chi
EHH NOW'S OUR TIME!
THE FIRE ALARM IS JUST RIGHT THERE
LETS GO!
THEN - EHH WHOEVER ACTIVATES THE ALARM, THE CLASS WILL CONTRIBUTE $5 EACH
damn funny.
looking at how stressed kent can get.

then for eng lesson.
the retarded joeltan (ZY) went to plug the speaker wire into his iphone.
then he recorded his own voice on it HAHAHHA.
~mr gilbert walks in~
~speaker plays jtzy's voice~ GREET MR GILBERT.
HAHAHHA IT SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF HIM.
well.. not really XD

Life, yet again.

2009-05-08T21:30:00.002+08:00

He will be a spirit of justice
to him who sits in judgment,
a source of strength
to those who turn back the battle at the gate.
- Isaiah 28:6
He blesses us.
I brought you into a fertile land
to eat its fruit and rich produce.
But you came and defiled my land
and made my inheritance detestable.
- Jeremiah 2:7
We have sinned.
'Return, faithless Israel,' declares the LORD,
'I will frown on you no longer,
for I am merciful,' declares the LORD,
'I will not be angry forever.'
- Jeremiah 3:11
He forgives.
"Return, faithless people;
I will cure you of backsliding."
"Yes, we will come to you,
for you are the LORD our God."
- Jeremiah 3:22
He cures.
Nevertheless, each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him. This is the rule I lay down in all the churches.
- 1 Cor 7:17
Brothers, each man, as responsible to God, should remain in the situation God called him to.
- 1 Cor 7;24
We remain in Him.
I do not understand why God led me to this particular chapter of 1 Cor 7.
I charge you, in the sight of God and Christ Jesus and the elect angels, to keep these instructions without partiality, and to do nothing out of favoritism.
- 1 Timothy 21
He trusts us.

For all this.
We worship Him.

the greatest. God.

2009-05-08T20:03:00.002+08:00

With so much to do, so much coming up.
We find it hard to keep our attention on God.
Sometimes we sin, sometimes we forget.
However, with pure repentance.
God forgives you, and He will restore you.
We will take up the cross, and He will revive us.
I was one of those people.
And I know everyone has gone through something like this.
The emptiness, the sadness.
Filled by the spirit, with love and grace.
As I was thinking of God, a song played in my mind.
At your word Lord,
I'll recieve your Faith..
At that moment, I broke down into tears.
Tears of guilt and repentance, yet tears of joy and hope.
For God has laid the way out.
For Hope has risen, and God has loved.
He put that very memory in me, that I may stand strong in Him.
That I may have true Faith in Him.
That I may become that servant of God.
For now I no longer look at things in the light of my eyes.
But in the light of God's name.
For He has opened up my eyes.
To what has made Him cry.
And to what He has in store for me.
I gave up all for Him.
And He has given me something.
That no eye has seen, nor ear has heard.
He opened up my eyes to the unseen.
To the future that I may have in Him.
To see a generation living for His purpose.
And darkness failing in Holy light.
Everyone will know, that Jesus.
Is a God, worthy of all of our praises.
For He, is who He is.
For He is good.
Nothing can surpass the glory of our God.
The wonder that He shows, the grace He gave.
The majesty of the son of God.
God, who gave His only son, who is of all days.
Jesus who gave His life, and is alive till this day.
We, who today in Your name, give with everything.

NPCC DAY

2009-05-07T20:42:00.002+08:00

today was an uber eventful day.
HAHHAAAHA really was superr.

TODAY!
ohh crap is 12 plus liaozzz and i havnt study.
nvm...
NPCC ceremony - quite stupid
ihc - nothing
lit - imba discussions
eng - DAMN FUNNY
math - OMG i actually dont understand.
chi - lame lame lame
phy - TEST. quite okay

ehhhh i will blog more abt this tmr.. but for now i have to mug my chem.
jus to tell ya, the highlight of today was kent's imba high side.

phy test tmr..

2009-05-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

AND THE BEST ADVICE I GIVE YA.
DONT MUG.. COS THERE IS SIMPLY NOTHING TO MUG.
sooo today was quite an eventful day.. tsk.

TODAY!
maths - go thru more stuff
ihe - spammage discussion
assembly - interesting :D
ihc - nothing
eng - admin issues
phy - revision!
icas - I NVR TAKE BIO LAHH -.-
mugging - OMG LAHHHH

hmmm about assembly.. a few interesting announcements were made.. SLC is now a school event - cannot leave the sch LOL plus no foreigners. Open house may be cancelled, cfm postpone. FUN RITE? plus so many camps that can be cancelled.. SO COOL :D XD NONONONNO but sg is now back to yellow alert >.> icas had a few bio qns and some uber dunno how to do qns.. so yeah - STILL GOT ACE WADD.

MUGGING.. YEAH RITE MUGGING. as if lahhh.. with pengning there how i mug lols. i using my laptop he suddenly come hug me and i cant do anything.. end up he use my comp with my fb logged in.. so yeah some of you can see what he did. mostly was just posting he being gay with me.. LIKE WTH LAHHHHHHH.

NPCC DAY TMR! i havnt prepared my uniform AT ALL. XD XD XD

OPEN HOUSE

2009-05-05T22:31:00.002+08:00

COMMITTEES PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SEND ME WHAT YOU NEED.
OR WE WILL GET SCREWED SRSLY..
ill jus use last year's list then.

okay i wanted to post this but i forgot..
With Everything is truly a great song.
Each time I begin to sing the first verse, I already feel like crying.
It really holds alot of meaning in it.

LALA

2009-05-05T21:00:00.003+08:00

okay let me show my imba shooting skillz.

cool rite? i purposely shot a 4 out.
HAHAHHHAHAAHH
okay other than that.. 2 other target cards i did not take photos off..
well one was okay the other was OMGWTH noob.

TODAY..
briefing by tingyit on photographer's role in elearning.. and I HAVE TO GET A CAMERA ASAP.. then PE lesson was the last one on tchoukball.. sadded though we owned both teams we played against.. AND STEVEN WAS LIKE DAO THE WHOLE TIME.. THEN HE SUDDENLY DAMN ZAI CAUGHT A DAMN IMBA BALL. chem prac was quite fun actually.. and i added too much catalyst XD. almost caused a too imba reaction. CHI WAS JUST SOME CHINA STUDIES LESSON - PURE BOREDOM. maths was going thru of some crap i did long ago so nth much.

HAHAHAAHAH i love shooting :D
i wanna go for another round D:
OHMY PHYSICS TEST ON THURS..
IM GONNA MUG MUG MUG TMR.
PHYSICS FTW!!

ohyaaa.. today i forgot to sign my chem prac..
and i jus realised i didnt bring it home again.
haiz..
so no more quiz to get my a1 anymore..
but i thought again.. i rather get a2 then to stress myself again -.-
SO HAHAHAHAHAAH the only thing im anticipating is getting crapped up by mrs chua.
BANG BANG!

What about the change!?

2009-05-04T22:43:00.002+08:00

ooohhhh.
since the start of the year i have declined in my muggingness.
and become..
MORE LAME
MORE RANDOM
MORE PRO IN ACTING
MORE QUACKING
and of cos.. MORE SPIRITUAL.

its time to reflect! quack.
HAHAHAHHAHH though the past me was in a way more beneficial
but i like the new me XD
now being able to face things with a totally different perspective..
THAT I DONT CARE, JUST HAVE FUN.
AND QUACK THE WAY THROUGH!

blahhh but i think there is a time i must be serious D:
ahhahahahahaha i guess ill be quite serious these few weeks..
COS OF TESTS..
THEN SABBATICAL WEEK ONWARDS ILL BE THE MAD JOEL AGAIN.
or JODUCK by the duck himself :D
lalalalalala i do think iv become much more retarded than before..
but its like - nothing can make me emo forever.
I MISS BEING EMO..

lalalalalala

2009-05-04T21:03:00.001+08:00

i think im going for this week's muggathon.
its gonna be damn fun.
IM GONNA MUG LIKE THERES NO TMR.
FOR THE SAKE OF A1 FOR CHEM!!!!!
AND GOGOGO FOR TOP IN CLASS FOR PHY!!!!
XD XD XD

today was stupid.
with retarded training.

COM LAB AGAIN

2009-05-04T08:22:00.001+08:00

ITS LIKE EVERY ENG LESSON WE GO COM LAB
HAHHAHAHHAHA
FACEBOOK!
BLOGGER!
and lots of other slacking stuff.

PYA PYA PYA

2009-05-04T00:17:00.002+08:00

I JUST CHIONGED OUT MY PYA REPORT.
SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU ARE IN A GROUP WITH ELWIN.
WE ARE GONNA GET SCREWED FOR MISSING THE DEADLINE BY 15MINs
WAHHHH I NVR GO TRAINING COS OF NPAP
AND YOUR ALL LET ME DO EVERYTHING
GOOD AHHHH.

Let Hope Rise

2009-05-03T22:35:00.003+08:00

My child, pray.
No longer will I fish, forever I will pray.
These hands, they not only carry the yoke of Jesus.
But they will be used by God for His kingdom.
For Hope has risen, and Holy light is present.
It is time to go forth, and live within Him.
Pray, and Hope will rise.

today somehow steven let himself go.
AND HE ACTUALLY WENT AS RANDOM AS ME.
HAHHAHHAH i think i deserve the credit :D
I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY CREATED A RANDOM STEVEN!
HAHHAHAHAHAH yay.

tmr will be an exciting day XD
with the new swine flu measures HAHAH
imba 2 times temp taking a day :O
extra training D:
and chionging of pday stuff with mrs ann D:
AHAHHAHAHAHAHAH looking foward to tmr!
crap i havnt done my physics yetttt.

Revelation.

2009-05-03T12:37:00.002+08:00

Today I asked God - How am I to help my brothers?
Amazingly, He told me - Pray.
I know it is not just a single prayer.
But rather to live a life of prayer, forever believing that God will answer those prayers.

on da lighter note.
I HAVNT DONE MY PHYSICS YET.
HAHAHAHAH will do them today :D
ytd's dinner was great!
went to fernando's house to celebrate his bday..
and sadly i didnt know that..
SO ALL I COULD DO WAS LET HIM TOUCH MY MACBOOK XD
HAHHAHHHAAA gratz on ur bday fernando..
XD XD XD

and i didnt bring enough money to buy cds ytd -.-
NEXT WEEK.
D: theres training tmr D:
HAHAHAAAHH its time to admonish ppl!

With Everything.

2009-05-02T22:37:00.002+08:00

Open our eyes
To see the things that make Your heart cry
To be the church that You would desire
Your light to be seen

Break down our pride
And all the walls we’ve built up inside
Our earthly crowns and all our desires
We lay at Your feet

Let hope rise
And darkness tremble
In Your holy light
That every eye will see
Jesus our God
Great and mighty to be praised

God of all days
Glorious in all of Your ways
Oh the majesty the wonder and grace
In the light of Your Name

Service really touched me today.
After each weekend, we always go back to fishing, but God wants us to live within Him.
Each time the song came to "Jesus our God", I would shout it out loud.
For I know that His presence is near.
I will never forget the words God spoke to me through Brother Samuel.
"... That he will follow his purpose With Love and Compassion."
I know God has called me to do one thing.
It is to Love.
Today, I choose to never turn back to fishing again.
I will answer that call, with everything that I am.
God gave me one word - Pray.
And it was exactly what I did at the altar call.
I fell on my knees, and started to pray.
I prayed for everyone, even those at the seats.
That the Holy Spirit would come upon them, and may God's anointing fall on them.
At that time, God came upon me, and I said - Ignyte, let us rise, for God is calling us to Him.
I knew that God was in me, for He answered my prayers.
His anointing fell upon us, and I could feel His work in us.
Even right now, I know there are souls forever changed in Him, and no longer fishing.
However, there was yet another message God gave me today.
He told me to stop thinking, and just focus on Him.
I did just that, and I can feel the difference in me.
Father, I have chosen to go with everything, for you have equipped me with all that I need, and that is You, my Lord.

POST 250.. ON MY MACBOOK!

2009-05-01T23:32:00.001+08:00

:D :D :D
im just happy.
:D :D :D

LEVEL FIVEEE.

2009-05-01T16:05:00.002+08:00

SWINE FLU REACHED EPIDEMIC LEVEL FIVE TWO DAYS AGO!
JUST ONE MORE LEVEL ANDDDD.... NO SCH!
XD XD XD
HAHAHHAHHAA.

i finally sorted out my drawers and my table.
I TOOK UBER LONG.
HAHHAAHHA i never did anything to it for like months :D
BUT I REALLY DONT HAVE ENOUGH SPACE IN MY DRAWERS D:
HAHAHAHA I SHALL KOPE MY BRO'S DRAWER SPACE. XD

HEYA! there will be an upcoming event called PLAYMAX!
anyone wanna know more can ask me!
and its during the june hols SO YEAH! COME JOIN ME!
HAHAHAHAAH it will be fun yo.

IM GONNA GET MY MACBOOK :D :D :D
I JUST CANT WAIT LARHHHH.
FASTER LARHH TIME.
XD XD HAHAHHAHHA

BANGGGG.

2009-05-01T00:55:00.001+08:00

HAHAHHAH im freaking happy now.
with my 4 shots that went in the black area.
XD XD XD
AND MY MAC TMR! :D :D :D
AHAHHAHAHAH nth much to say abt the past 2 days.
COS THEY WERE UTTERLY BORING.
HAHHAHHAAHHA LOOKING FOWARD TO MUGGING PHY!

CHEMISTRY ROX.

2009-04-28T21:43:00.002+08:00

heee im starting to love doing chemistry.
cos its like uber easy, the whole class got a2 and above for the test -.-
now left with results of chem prac.

TODAY!
pe - 3o2 v 3p2! got owned XD
chem - PRAC TEST! flunked abit D:
chi - CHI TEST! i dont understand at all XD
math - DUCK OWNAGE!

pe we jus played a match of the dunnowadball with 3p2, well it was fine.. lost by abit only HAHA. chem prac test.. well was abit unexpected. the soln had 2 cations and 1 anion.. superr. end up to be copper and iron plus nitrate.. but i only managed to think of the comfirmatry test for iron at the moment - PUT DOWN YOUR PENS. haiz. chem test got like 27.5/35.. not bad still a1.. even with the paper full of careless mistakes HAHAHAA. chi test - ermm for once the lijies were short? math - was just ang giving us comments on the project. AND DUCKISHLY SHE SAY MY GRP THE BEST - of cos wadd.. the duck did almost everything -.- DUCK! I WILL ONLY DO SOMETHING IF YOU CHANGE UR PROFILE PIC TO A DUCK! HAHAHAHA cme interview was fun ^^

NNONONONNNOO NPCC IS NOT DOING FLAG RAISING DUTY ON CSM. SADDDDD.
BUT STILL MARSHALLING! :D
ohhh and sadd pn cant go shooting team cos of msg problems D:
and some are feeling that the trainings are not worth the time D:
nvm i will stay in shooting team :D

God reassured me today.
For I know I have followed His word.
No turning back.

CHEM PRAC.

2009-04-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

I JUST SQUEEZED 8 PAGES OF NOTES INTO ONE AND A HALF PAGE.
WOOOHOOO.
IM READY FOR CHEM PRAC TEST YEAHH.
TODAY WAS A CRAZY DAY.
ESP IHC LESSON.
OHMY IT WAS TOTALLY OUT OF POINT.
TYPICAL ANYWAY.
HOPE I CAN BE OT FOR ONE SLC EVENT :D
HAHHAHAH QUACK.

quack :D quack

2009-04-26T21:26:00.002+08:00

so.. today was nothing.
my parents did feel that it was abit kua zhang for me to go and withdraw money and actually carry such a large sum of money with me, so they decided that they would follow me to buy a macbook next sun :D LALA but they will still kope the money from my bank hahahhaha
I think im dumb too anyway, i forgot to bring home my chem file even when there's chem prac test on tues :D
and in case i forget..
HAPPY BDAY JAVIER.. the best i can do is forget the countless amt of money you owe me. HAHAAHAA cos i think it amounted to arnd 20++ liaoz XD jkjk anyway i dunno wad i can actually get you.. maybe the class could pool some money to get you a proper phone plan - A WIN-WIN SITUATION. REALLY.

Well other than that I was really touched by God today.
Now, everywhere I go, I can feel that there is someone with me.
Someone inside of me, giving me strength.
And every moment, I can hear from Him.
For today I could feel His hand touch mine.
My child, Joel.
You have been chosen, to be a symbol.
A symbol to show my willingness.
You will become that testimony which will change lives, lives which in turn will do the same.

matters to let go..

2009-04-26T10:01:00.002+08:00

A hunger to see your kingdom come
A passion for your will to be done.

I know that God has blessed me in many ways, but all I care is that, He has blessed me by using me. People envy how my parents treat me. People envy my freedom. Still, I know God meant this to be in this way, for it is through this that I can become that blessing for others. Yesterday, I really felt God's call in me. All along I knew that He called me to preaching, But I never really knew what I had to do. Now I know. For He has laid out the course, I will live for that cause. Even if anything would go wrong, God will be my path.

Alot of people wish their parents could be like mine, but this I tell you, do not ask for something like this. Having so much freedom, is not a good thing. My father just told me this when I requested to have a lapop bought - I will not contribute a single cent to it. Then he gave me my bankbook, telling me to do it myself. It may seem as a miracle if that would happen for some of you, but it really makes you feel at unease. Be grateful for everything, for it is all God's plan to shape us into who we are to be in Him.

Right now, it seems that there is so much to do, yet nothing to do.
So many things promised by God, yet I am unsure.
He has shown me the path, and I will go.
For it is a path, towards Him.
My child, let not this Faith begone.
Let it prosper into fruit.
For you have let me use it.

You are good ((:

2009-04-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

Lord you are good
and your mercy endureth forever
People from evey nation and tounge
From generation to generation

We worship you,
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
We worship you,
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
We worship you,
For who you are, You are good

All the time, all the time
You are good.

Nothing much to say, yet so much I want to say.
Its time I let go of some things.

Have I changed? Yes I have. People have been asking me, Joel, why have you changed so much? I did not answer that. But now I answer it. For I love you. For I know that God has called me to be all that I am today. God has called me to be a speaker of all truth. The neverending truth of Jesus Christ. God has put alot of obstacles in my life, but I never let them pull me down. Even if I have, God will being me back up. I thank God for these happenings, for they are everything that has shaped me to who I am now, and will shape me to who He wants me to be. For he has called me to places I can't go, and people I can't reach, and it is through everything he will place before me that He will give me the heart, and set me apart. For I know the fruits that await me at the end of the journey, fruits that will last. It is love that brought me this promise, and it is my promise to bring that love to others. So, always remember, I will love you. And there will always be others loving you, even if everyone seems to hate you. For God loves you.

Service was the awesome.
At the altar call, God gave me a gift.
The gift, came in the form of a tear.
For it flowed down.
The tear, led me straight into a vision.
It began with the previous me.
Kneeling at the cross, searching for something.
And as I turned around.
I saw people coming to worship Him.
Then the song played.
"I will go"

My child, you have chosen the path.
Now, the time has come.
You will go, and be everything in my eyes that you are.

haiz..

2009-04-25T11:49:00.002+08:00

i jus cried.
badly.
i shall tell you the story of my little bro (jovi).
Before he began education, me and my elder bro (vanka) did very well in studies.
Surpassing my mother's expectations etc.
Now, everyday that i am at home, i will wake up to my mother shouting at jovi.
I really cried for him.
Cos i regretted not treating him well last time, and he is still suffering now.
I really dont know how i can help him other than praying.
You cant expect him to be as good as me and vanka just because we are brothers right?
He gets traumatised each day, and i believe he has a phobia of geting beaten up alr.
haiz, God please intervene in this matter, for I know you love Jovi.

The greatest love that anyone could ever know.

BANG! BANG!

2009-04-22T16:59:00.002+08:00

SHOOTING TEAM!!!
YEAHHHHH I DUNNO HOW I GOT IN I JUS HAPPILY APPEALED AND I GOT IN YEAHHHHHH
WOOOHOOOO IM SO FREAKING HAPPY.
TOMORROW'S THE FIRST TRAINING!
HAHHHAAHAAH I CANT WAIT :D

Im just so happy :D :D :D
ohya abt ytd.. i emoed that i got 28/40 for maths..
somemore not one of the highest in class.. haiz.
BUT AFTER THAT I WAS HAPPY :D
for no reason at all XD

HAHAHHAHAH
today was nothing much..
and i realised that i am flag raising during CSM..
and marshalling after i raise the flag..
haiz.
maths today was just failure.. cos the bonus qn was a scam and i didnt do it.
pratically the easiest qn of the whole test.
im starting to not like lit discussions cos the whole streotyping is just lame.
assembly was like.. a crappish discussion.
LAI BA 3O2, we shall be one of the classes for the new pilot project in FS@HCI.
ihc was pure stupidity.
eng was going through some expo writing stuff.. preparing for test later.
phy was me getting scolded for not handing stuff on the day i was sick.
haiz wadever..

looking foward to tmr :D
with shooting team training.
then mugging at church for chem.
then the.. dunno wad service.
it will be fun :D
with boonjin going to kill me too XD
cos i didnt do anything at all when she wasnt here.
HAHHHAHAHAHA

wad a duck day.

2009-04-20T21:24:00.002+08:00

Dear child, what are you crying for?
Do not weep my child, for I know my plans for you.
You are as far as you can go, at the edge of the cliff.
Looking over to the other side, to the horizons which hold your future.
I will be your bridge, to bring you over.
However difficult it may be, all you have to is simple.
Wait.
For it is not long before the time will come.
It is soon.
For this bridge, it is only by Faith can you cross it.
And my child, you have shown much Faith.
As a reward, I will do as you have asked.
As you have asked with selflessness, I will grant you that.
To have this Faith used for the purpose of my kingdom.
My child, press on till that day.
Press on.

WAD A DUCK DAY TODAY WAS.
WITH PURE IRRITATION FROM ME AGAINST THE DUCK.
but it was cool, i went so high that i repeatedly said duck throughout the lesson.
today! other than duck.
eng - comp lab! DUCK.
ihc - teacher not here! DUCK.
math - trigo! DUCK.
chem - chemical bonding! DUCK.
phy - ACTION AND REACTION! DUCK OF ALL.
chem - more chemical bonding! DUCK.

REALLY TODAY WAS JUST ME BEING DUCKISH.
com lab lesson was just me and duck posting threads on forums like agreeing with everything together even when we sat next to each other HAHAHAHAHA. ihc was me doing the sudoku with duck.. and irritating him in other ways of cos. maths was me spamming duck with questions. chem.. well i was like - DUCK BOND! then lose one duck to form a table octet structure! uber. PHY WAS THE BEST. when ms tan used the video - wad do you predict will happen? then i almost shouted - THE DUCK WILL FLY! HAHHAHAHAHA i was superr. plusplus got the action and reaction law of neuton. then to prove it i was throwing my highlighter at duck's head. and i was saying - DUCK ACTION AND REACTION LAW! the 2nd chem lesson was just nothing.. but well it was AFTER THAT. after we were dismissed i was like go to the back of the class at the back door there.. and i saw duck again and i SHOUTED DUCK. mrs chua was right behind me when i did that. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA freaking funny.

DUCK DUCK DUCK.
we shall quack the whole day tmr.
:D sounds fun.
irritating the entire class.
HAHAHAHAHHA

WHEEE

2009-04-19T22:19:00.002+08:00

npap'09 was pratically jus pure fun.
that i forgot to mention.
getting screwed by officers, well was the pinnacle of the fun.
but the funniest part - all the perfect drills.
which were not to be found during the parade.
BUT AFTER THE PARADE.
really.
the perfect bangs were all after returning rifles.
i shall miss the trembling of my arm.
and the aching of my muscles.
but really lahh.
it was uber fun.
we were not nervous before the march out.
COS WE WERE STILL JOKING.
srsly lol.

HAHHAHAHA other than npap.
i cant stop listening to my ipod :D
and it has to be one song on repeat ((:
One Way Jesus :D :D :D
i finished my maths filing.
and finally sorted out my desk :D
erm.. its somehow "neat" now. XD
heyy i just dont have the space.
with my retarded bro.
and i found out sth abt myself.
when im emoing its thebest time to express my feelings..
but when i want to.. the emoing disappears.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

looking foward to a week which i cant seem to expect anything at all.
lets see how it goes.
but i believe ill be mugging like crap this week.
for chem test.

To Know Your Name

2009-04-19T17:25:00.002+08:00

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems
Forgiven I'm alive, restored, set free
Your majesty resides inside of me
Forever I believe
Forever I believe

Arrested by Your truth and righteousness
Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness
Convicted by Your Spirit and by Your Word
Your love will never fail
Your love will never fail

Cos I know You gave
The world Your only Son for us
To know Your name
To live within the Saviour's love
He took my place
Knowing He'd be crucified
You loved
You loved a people undeserving
- To Know Your Name lyrics
For now I know, the Love that's never failing.

Yesterday was a super long day.
Though all that mattered was that GoH owned the whole parade.
Good job everyone, even though some of us fainted.
I didnt, though I felt unwell after that.
But it was really cool, with the retarded audience applausing at every command we do.
HAHAHAHAH it was really uber stupid.
Really, we did a great job, with officers commending on our work after the parade.
And sustaining the honor of the parade even after having to stand through the stupid speech by the RO.
Its over now.. time to go back to normal trainings.
And own the crap out of rifle drills.

AND THE RETARDED SEC2s LEFT SO EARLY.
if not we would have gone back to sch to celebrate with the rest.
somemore it was zhirong's bday.
aHAHAHAH HAPPY BDAY ZHIRONG.
HAHAH he got niaoed by cai and the other ci.
i miss GoH..
WE DIDNT TAKE ENOUGH PHOTOS OKAY.
BUT MY UNIFORM IS STILL WITH ME!
HAIZ DARREL CHONG FASTER UPLOAD PHOTOS LAH.
but now it feels like i wanna go back there..
and do the drills once again..
haiz.. no more m16..
T.T and my number 1 will be taken away soon..
nooooooo..
HAHAHAHAHA
haiz i still have my maths to file.
the next few days..
i think i could be emo.

emo emo emo.
Its the same as before.
Though how different things may seem compared to then, God seems to be giving me the exact same encouragement.
I will press on.

4.. 3.. 2.. 1.. GOH!

math test ):

2009-04-17T21:10:00.002+08:00

okay so for today thats it.
i screwed up my maths test.
wad else to say?
minus 10 marks from leaning blanks.
but really, it came as a blow to us.
the worksheets, revisions were like uber easy.
then suddenly a killer paper.. haiz
but test 2 shld be okay.. trigo.

ohh and i found out my emoing has quite came back.
all cos of maths.. i emoed for abt 1hr?
though thats the longest it can get for now.
so if i have suddden relapses of emo.. dont bother me, it shld go away really soon.
ohh yaaaaa today's chi discussion was purely stupid..
none of the panellists prepared.. including me.
and it was like - someone talking... then jav would flash a pic on the screen.
really retarded.

haiz.. tmr's npap alr.
today was only 30min shorter than what will happen tmr.
hope i dont faint.
im not in the mood to go high over it now.

Today, God spoke to me.
During one of my emoing when I was crossing the bridge, I heard an extremely clear voice.
Press on, my child. Press on.
I believe it says for itself.